today i was in 3 separate incidents, during which i criticized, i was disappointed and locked to no other choice....
i. dagny skipped school. her father does not care. i must interfere. i have to figure out a way to raise a 15 year old with someone who i get along with least out of all people walking on this planet.
ii. i had to vote to fire our new executive artistic director at the theater. he just started but pissed off too many people. i HATE having power over other people's lives. it gives me no pleasure and leaves me feeling uncertain. i would make the worst judge ever!
iii. got home - a friend stopped by who is going through divorce. his wife wants a lot of money from him. she doesn't work, he does. they have no children. it is totally unfair. i had to tell him it was unfair. she is using him. he is blind.
today i feel helpless, judgmental and critical.
i realize new thing about me - i do not enjoy having power over other people. i didn't really know that about myself
