even when i close my eyes i must be careful how i dream and of what, for now only the thinnest veil separates dream from reality

    DON'T WORRY

dagny had a good week. 

still working on my comp 1.

it is nice to breathe. 

she is so strange. 

she has strange dreams.

she thinks they are telling her things.

she thinks she needs to jump the fence and run through the field.

wrinkles in my brain show no sign on my face.

as i walk the streets of buenos aires i see other faces, the prettiest ones having the lines...

i see stories to be told, stories connecting with me only for brief moments on streets i will never see again,

at least not in the same light, not with the same birds watching me from the tree tops.

this too shall pass

        well. who would have known that the test would come so soon.
        today i was in 3 separate incidents, during which i criticized, i was disappointed and locked to no        other choice....
        i. dagny skipped school. her father does not care. i must interfere. i have to figure out a way to raise a 15 year old with someone who i get along with least out of all people walking on this planet.

       ii. i had to vote to fire our new executive artistic director at the theater. he just started but pissed off too many people. i HATE having power over other people's lives. it gives me no pleasure and leaves me feeling uncertain. i would make the worst judge ever!
    
      iii. got home - a friend stopped by who is going through divorce. his wife wants a lot of money from him. she doesn't work, he does. they have no children. it is totally unfair. i had to tell him it was unfair. she is using him. he is blind.

today i feel helpless,  judgmental and critical.
i realize new thing about me - i do not enjoy having power over other people. i didn't really know that about myself